Confessions of a wandering mind

I had mentioned in my previous post about how I am left feeling like my friends have moved on but I have stayed stagnant these days. As I have been realizing more and more I have been trying to make new friends as well. But given that I am old, I am probably also getting cynical, so I have not managed to make any lasting friendships yet, and by lasting I mean not even for 6 months. It is not because of lack of trying but because people have become un-attached and un-emotional in this digital age. People go home, turn on TV, eat and/or drink and sleep. They don't need anyone else and they don't even have any space left for another person. I don't mean love in just romantic kind of love, but also general love and care for friends. In the recent times, I have tried hard to make friends with one person. I had met the guy through a friend late last year during Thanksgiving time, for matrimonial purposes really. We had a good conversation, and I was hopeful it was going so...

I am one of those emotional beings who still believes in friendships and travels hundreds of miles to go meet my friends. I am basically a sucker for friendships, go out of my way to please my friends, apologize too much, and feel too attached to friends. This picture poster is probably an apt one for me. I never had too many friends and the limited number of friends I have, I treasure them. I really believed in the fact that my close friends truly will make time for me, and care for me. But lately I am realizing that my friends have moved on. Married friends have kids now and they are either busy with their kids or friends who are in a similar social strata that they can relate to, like friends with kids, friends who are local etc. Single friends have moved on to make other friends. But I feel like I am still in the past and clinging to them, fighting with them for their time, forcing myself into their life.  The recent experiences have proved it to me.  I have mad...