Confessions of a wandering mind

I was reading this article about existential crisis https://people.howstuffworks.com/what-does-it-really-mean-to-have-existential-crisis.htm To quote from the same article,  An existential crisis is different than anxiety over a really difficult decision ("Do I want to major in economics or musical theatre?") or even a case of major depression in which nothing seems to interest or motivate you. A true existential crisis, explains  Clay Routledge , a psychological researcher and professor at North Dakota State University, is having your worldview — the thing that gives your life meaning and structure — completely shattered. "Most people generally believe their lives have a purpose and a meaning," says Routledge. "An existential crisis is when that belief collapses." I think for me, it has been the belief system that has been imbibed in me, about the constant need for approval. I think it starts from childhood, from the upbringing. But you reach a ...

August has been a popular month for me. It was the month I came to US 17 yrs ago, it is the month, I chose to move to Seattle and join MS and it is alo the month, I changed teams this year. So seems like somehow my birthday month manages to bring new changes in my life. As this month wraps up, I had a few lessons I learnt, some realizations, that I thought I would jot down. First, I take myself too seriously and feel important. Think that I should matter to at least one person and that I should be important to people, if no one else to my family and friends. And if I dont get that, I just crash completely. This I saw it firsthand on my birthday when my parents didn't wish me and my friends didn't remember to wish me either. Of course, Facebook has plenty of people wishing because of reminders, but I feel they are out of habit that people wish. If someone really cares for you, they would pick up the phone and wish.  Yes, it is sad, but it should not have caused a breakdown lik...