Existential Crisis

I was reading this article about existential crisis
https://people.howstuffworks.com/what-does-it-really-mean-to-have-existential-crisis.htm

To quote from the same article, 

An existential crisis is different than anxiety over a really difficult decision ("Do I want to major in economics or musical theatre?") or even a case of major depression in which nothing seems to interest or motivate you. A true existential crisis, explains Clay Routledge, a psychological researcher and professor at North Dakota State University, is having your worldview — the thing that gives your life meaning and structure — completely shattered.

"Most people generally believe their lives have a purpose and a meaning," says Routledge. "An existential crisis is when that belief collapses."

I think for me, it has been the belief system that has been imbibed in me, about the constant need for approval. I think it starts from childhood, from the upbringing. But you reach a stage when whatever you do, you cannot get that approval anymore. Growing up, my mom used to punish me if I got second in class, even in a unit test. So I used to try really hard to not get second in class, try to impress my parents. Handwriting was important, Speaking and writing in English was important, so I tried hard to impress. I followed the same path all through my studies.So when I came to Masters, and I realized, there was no first and second ranks here, and there are many more people from IITs etc. here and I was not able to keep up with them,it hit me hard at the time and made me believe that I was not good enough. Even though I managed to get 3.8 GPA out of 4.0, I still had this nagging feeling. I didn't get into big tech companies through campus recruiting like others did. But eventually I did make it to my dream company. But when I did, I realized it didn't really matter to anybody where I worked or what I did. I realized what mattered for my parents was that I get married. That's the only thing that can help me get their approval. It's been this way for the past 12+ years. Of course, there were other things in parallel too. Like paying off my educational loans, then buying a house because everyone else was. Now that there is nothing else except for my marriage that can get me their approval or anyone in my extended family's approval these days, I feel like I am worthless. My parents make it sound like I committed some sins and I have to make up for those by praying to God endlessly so one day God may take sympathy on me and help me find that magic guy. And because of me, they have to go to all these temples, and perform all the religious rituals (poojas) and it is taking a toll on their health. When I bring up the same conversation with them, they shot me down and they even started saying that, I should come to India to just perform these poojas so that I can get married. It makes me think that my existence has no value unless there is a guy in my life. I feel guilty that I am putting my parents in this tough sport and making them go through this. But I also think even if I get married, they will still continue to do their poojas and will probably claim that their poojas did the magic and fixed my life somehow. I do not know how to get people to accept me the way I am, with no tags attached, no guy attached. And if they cannot accept, how do I live my life without this need for their approval? I keep thinking I am making progress towards that and then I have a phone call with my parents, and everything goes down the drain. I have to get to a stage where none of this affects me. And that I can find a path that will give me fulfillment and happiness whether or not I get married.